Stick a wide load sign on my ass

I have had 2 babies now and I know that pregnancy can reek havoc on your body. I know that it takes bla bla bla to put it on and bla bla bla to take it off but damnit my take it off bla is not working. I am so tired of looking in the mirror and seeing my doughy white grossness staring back at me. I blame my pussy pouch and flabby ass on my second born, the spawn of Satan. After having my first I was working and needed cute clothes, all the girls in my office had cute clothes while I sported my pregnancy moo moo's. I started working out,doing Pilates and had gr8 results. I was down to my pre-prreggo weight before getting pregnant with my second spawn. I did good, trying not to gain as much weight the second time around. I have lost over 30 pounds since giving birth and I should be happy but really I am sick with myself. My weight has been fluctuating between 133 and 140 for the past month and a half. I am only 5 feet so that weight makes me chunky. I have a spare tire and a pouch that I hate. My stomach muscles, after being hacked into to remove stubborn Spawn #2, is such a mess. I wish I could have a tummy tuck or something. I was so happy not to have stretch marks on my belly but now it doesn't matter. I still look like I am 3 months post partum. My belly sags and is so gross. I do crunches, but still no results. I hate my pouch, it is so disgusting to look at. It jiggles. I have a jello gut. I watch it wiggle, it makes my babes giggle. GROSS GROSS GROSS !!!